I’ve always felt young, vibrant and alive. I have never thought of myself as old, or even close to middle-age but lately I’m beginning to question myself.
I just realized, last week, that I’m going to be 36 this year. How did that happen? I swear I just turned 31 and got married, where did the last five years go? Oh I know, I look at The Snitch and she’s going on seven, next week, she took my years.
I’m also finding grey hair and not just an occasional single one at my temple. No, last week I was in a public bathroom and the horrible fluorescent lights made the grey at the crown of my head sparkle like I had a diamond tiara on. I went into freak out mode because I’m only 35 and should not be able to see grey like that. And with me only being 5′4″ everyone else is taller than me so it made me wonder just how many people saw that sparkly grey. Sigh. Luckily I arm myself by keeping an extra box of dye on hand so I took care of that problem real quick.
Then there’s the fact that its now 2009. You’re like Uh, where have you been? Duh. Well for me its a little shock to the system because that means this June I will have been out of high school for eighteen years already. Seriously, eighteen years? Are you kidding me? Yeah, no wonder I get called Ma’am, which I hate by the way.
Finally, when I realized I’m getting old is when Mister and I were at Target a couple of weeks ago and he pointed out this girl working there, she was maybe 19-21, if that, and she had her earring holes stretched out about two inches with HUGE spike gauges in each ear. I’m talking National Geographic shit here. He and I looked at each other, shook our heads and kept walking. But the thing that made me realize I’m getting old is later I thought about this girl and thought to myself How on earth is she ever going to get a realjob when she’s in her 30’s or 40’s looking like a freak with saggy, disgusting earlobes? That’s also something I thought about when my step-daughter got a tattoo on her wrist/forearm a few weeks ago. She’s also 19 didn’t think about her future, um she’s going to school to be a History teacher, nice look for that.
*sigh* When did I get old? And is it a good thing? In a way I think so because I know I’m much wiser and more responsible, then again when I find myself questioning the youth of todayI want to vomit because that’s the stuff old people do! WTF?
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March 30, 2009 at 7:37am
Flyinfox_SATX
We need to adapt. Just as our parents needed to adapt with us. I have come to realize that the values that my parents had are gone. The values they have instilled in me are leaving. And the values we give our children are what will remain for a while.
This is a good reflective post….
Do me a favor though…on your blog roll you have my old blog address up. Could I ask a huge favor and ask you to refresh it when you get the chance? Thanks!
March 30, 2009 at 10:11am
Slick
36?? Old ass.
Geeez, 36?? Break out the walker and diapers.
I’m the same way now, I see young people and the first thing I think about is what will the future hold for them. With the way they abuse their bodies nowadays
March 30, 2009 at 4:50pm
Carrie
I feel like I was born old. Yeah, I am still immature as hell but as for being a typical “teen or young person”, I never was. I drive like a grandma, I listen to music that is older than my mom, I have all kinds of freaking rules that I live by and I am comfortable with this. However, my boss tells me that she saw Adam the other day at the store and my first thought was, “was he wearing shorts”. Not that I am ashamed of his tattoos, it is just that these people perceive me to be something that nobody else sees. I’m old.
March 30, 2009 at 8:14pm
Cece
Fox, you’re right, the values of yesteryear are gone. Too bad.
Slick, bite me.
Carrie, I’ve got Mister asking Is this ok? and it cracks me up.
March 31, 2009 at 9:09am
auntiegwen
I’m 42 so think how I feel !!
April 2, 2009 at 9:20am
Chris
I went through the same thing a few years ago. It’s not like it happens gradually, you just wake up one day and start realizing things and feel really old all of a sudden!
April 2, 2009 at 5:50pm
Erin
I feel the same way! I’m turning 36 this year as well… and although I have been permanently gray since 20 (premature gray runs in our family – lucky me!) I still have the same feelings about so many other things. It sucks, but you have to suck it up and say that with age comes experience and all that other crap, lol.